I definitely get comfortable in the daily grind. But comfortable is a weird word to use. My comfort isn't very comfortable. It's actually downright boring at times. It is what it is. I've chosen a life that requires me to grind out finances that'll eventually go towards building a life that's way radder and way more emotionally/creatively fulfilling. It's part of this process: the one in which I figure out who I am and what I'm gonna do with my life. But still, sometimes the boredom affects the good stuff I have going on. It drains my creative energy. Keeps me from being excited every Monday and Friday when I make videos.

I was reminded of this when I went to Playlist Live a couple weekends ago. The trip itself was very impulsive. I wouldn't have gone if I wasn't invited and given a free ticket (which was double McFreaking rad of Playlist). That weekend was one of the best I've had in recent memory. It was an adventure. It was doing something and going somewhere just to do it, and I learned a lot and was able to derive a metric crapton of inspiration from that.

Now I'm back home. Going to work every day. Back to that daily/weekly routine of monotony with brief highlights in the form of YouTube videos.

To sound like a cliché young person, I crave something more in this in between period in which I'm biding my time before going independent. I want to go on more adventures. Go somewhere else other than work and my house.

I want to take day trips to see friends. Just wander around and DO things. A big thing I'm missing in my life is fun. I want and need to have more fun, lest I get so bored that I can't come back from it. I've got VidCon coming up in June, and I also want to go other places. Been toying around road tripping up to Toronto and seeing some Canadian buddies of mine.

As the Spring gets going and the weather starts to warm up, that's my new commitment to myself: to have more fun. 2 years ago, I had to get myself back to basics and live day by day. And I finally think I'm at a point where I can expand on that and really start to freaking just live my life.

I plan to move across the country soon. When is soon? Eh, who really knows? But soon enough that the word "soon" feels right to use. So in the meantime I want to do everything I can while I'm still here, both professionally/on YouTube, and locationally.

I can't help but think of the Wilderness Explorers slogan from Up; "Adventure is out there!"

It is out there. And I'm done waiting for it to show up at my door. I gotta go find it myself.

DFTBA
-Connor